I bark a twisted laugh,
Unable to contain it,
You're too ridiculous for words.
As you turn the knife,
A clock-wise direction,
Driven into my heart.
I feel my blood,
Pouring down my shirt,
Splattering as it hits the ground.
You stare blankly,
As though you don't care,
Not that I ever thought you did.
Sounds are fading,
My eyes flutter shut,
You've done your job.
ABOUT ME Hi
Im Jemson
BUT call me Rosey
Im 18 and I am Anorexic
recovering Anorexic.
I am open about this
because iv been dealing with it
for a long time.
Iv always wanted
to be a model,
it was my life goal
to be in playboy...kidding.
There is more to my
Anorexic Nervosa story,
if you would like to know
im working on writing the whole story.
I think about food 24/7
What im going to eat,
what I shouldnâ??t eat,
when I should eatâ?¦
it might be sickening to you,
but its my life.
My lowest weight was 84 pounds,
but I weight 95 right now
and im trying to break my
rules, and get to !10 pounds.
I always speak my mind,
and its usually extremely out there
hypotheses and
â??pointing out the obviousâ?? things.
I write
ALOT! Ask me if you want to see my writing.
I smoke cigarettes.
I live with my brother,
And some of his friends.
My parents are dead.
No Im not one of those people to say this just to get attention,
(and Im not lying)
I say it because I donâ??t want stupid questions
â?¦ if only people would read my info.
My farther wasnâ??t
the nices person in the world,
to me.
He believed that women
were alive to serve men.
Yeah I know sick,
but itâ??s the way
I lived for 13 years.
Also every day of those
13 years, my farther
told me I was ugly.
I still beleave to this day
that I am ugly,
if you say im not,
then okay thats what you think.
I like my life right now.

Im looking for a boy
That will sweep me off my feet
Like in the books
I hide myself in

Hint I like dark haired boys
And guys that take care of themselfs
and will take care of me